i feel the onset. I recognise that the triggers have, yet again, been activated. i don’t want to have to pull myself through this in solitude again. i’m getting weaker and weaker, and closer to giving in.
i decide that i can at least give it one more try. a last effort attempt to give me that peace of mind, that i truly did try everything. you may confide in someone that you trust (if you have such a person) to help you through this task.
this task that would grow to become more difficult to pull through than i ever could have imagined. i was, i wouldn’t put it as lucky, but somewhat fortunate, to have such a person in my life.. to a certain extent anyway.